Wild Abandon

Sometimes I wonder, why I did have kids? Even before I was pregnant I knew that having children was a selfish act, trying to fulfill something within me. In the grocery store, passing parents and their screaming child, thinking time to go home. Hearing a parent scold their child thinking I would never do that.

Mother-Friend

Postpartum depression hit me like a ton of bricks after having my first baby. I would get so upset anytime someone would call it the “baby blues.” It felt too trivial a term to describe the desperation and hopelessness I felt moment after moment, day after day, and it didn’t help that there weren’t a

This Old House

I, like many other people during the pandemic, have spent a lot of time in my house lately…and I, like many other people, have found ways to improve it. Renovate, decorate, whatever terminology you choose. I know I’m not the only one because driving around my neighborhood you will find house painters, concrete mixers, pool

The Work They Can’t See

“Productive.” It’s the bane of my existence. It’s the new 4 letter word. The same goes for “goals.” I have to admit that I’ve felt completely lost for a while now. At least a few years and probably for much longer than that. Aside from wanting to be a singer or an actress when I

Dear Girl

A letter to my pre-pandemic self. Dear Girl, It’s December 2019 and you are living a version of your life that seems successful to the onlooker. You have two adorable babies. You just spent the first year in your new house. Your social life is active, but things are about to change abruptly and there

First Day of School

My oldest started kindergarten today. For the last few nights I have been waking up in the middle of the night worrying about him. I usually wake up around 3 am and a never-ending cycle of questions swirl through my head. What if he’s too nervous to talk? What if he doesn’t make any friends?

Mr. Mig

On Tuesday Mat went back to school for hybrid teaching. Working from home has definitely been a struggle for some couples. Sharing the same workspace and seeing each other all day long can be exhausting. For us, it has been heavenly. We love being together with the kids all day. We consider it a fleeting

“I’m Fine” and Other Lies We Tell

They say it takes a village to raise a child and in some very real ways it’s true. Villagers are trusted people that you rely on to babysit your kids, get together for meals, playdates, etc. Villagers are so necessary but also very tricky. I truly appreciate the villagers that come and support my family.

Time to Move On

In late September as my school was preparing to return to in-person learning, I made the heart wrenching decision to take a leave of absence for the rest of the school year. Initially, I had asked for accommodations to continue to teach from home, but I was denied. The way I saw it, I had

Why though?

I’ve always written. Almost every day for a majority of my life, I have written something. This started when I got my first diary at 8 years old. I promised it (the diary) that I would write in it every day, and I did for a while because promises are very serious commitments for a